Scared 'of' Death

For two days now, my 7 year old son, has been freaking out about dying. He doesn't want to die, he doesn't want his dad and I to die. He keeps asking how long we might live and says how time goes by too fast so we will die too soon. He's afraid he won't find us in heaven. He's afraid he will have no friends if "the bestest mom and the bestest dad" die.

It is also scaring him when his throat feels funny, like there's something in it, which he is getting a cold and that's why he is getting that feeling. He is afraid he won't be able to talk anymore and then he "wouldn't be able to spell". He gets water in his ears at bath time and he's afraid that he won't be able to hear anymore. I could keep going on and on about every little thing he has been worrying about these past 36 hours, but there really is way too much.

I keep asking myself "why?". Why is a 7 year old focusing so much on himself dying? I even called my mom and asked how to handle this, because she has had a lot of the same experiences with a certain daughter ;). We've talked about heaven, we've talked about how there are angels around us, we've talked about how we are all healthy and nothing seems to calm him down and give him peace.

I believe it comes down to spiritual warfare and that Satan is attacking my baby right now. I am standing in the gap for him and I know his grandma is also. This could also be a result of "generational sin". When I see him and hear what he is saying, I see and hear myself. I was so much that way as a child and even as an adult I get easily "freaked" out myself. Now I am getting after myself on why I didn't break this cycle earlier. It hurts my heart to see my child in so much anguish and worry, especially totally unnecessary anguish. We, as in myself, Jeff and Tanner, my 7 year old, are going to fight to break this bondage so it doesn't keep us captive and so no other family member has to carry this "generational" burden on their back. I need to watch what I say and what I think. Jeff and I need to make our home a place of peace and a refuge, which with a brand new move and all the busyness and stress of it all I'm sure that has added it's own dimension to the whole situation.

God is also showing me a parallel here. Just as I know nothing is wrong with Tanner and that he is OK, God knows that same thing about me. But just as Tanner doesn't really hear, believe and trust what I'm saying because he is too consumed with every little thought and fear, I am doing the same thing with my Father in heaven and the promises He has given me. Surrender Julie to a complete trust of the Father!

God did not give us a spirit of fear! By His stripes we are healed! Satan has no right and no hold on my family! We are going to take our thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ!